Day 108 - Strange times
Things have been very weird lately. Family, career, random luck. Nothing is quite in the right place right now. I have to find some balance in my life and create some more positive energy. No matter what you do, you will always have times where you don’t have all the answers or you won’t know the next step to take. I haven’t been posting much lately, because there is nothing to discuss regarding my efforts to get work on TV. I am going to call some agents tomorrow and set up some interviews. I am also going to make some calls regarding me getting on some TV sets to do some production work. The truth is, you need to pay your dues. You need to get out there and give it everything you’ve got for a decent amount of time.
I have a problem. You see, as a child I was very successful. When I graduated from elementary school, I was named the top scholar and top athlete. This set the standard for the rest of my life. After breezing through high school, I started to wonder what I could do with my life. What could I do to keep up the same standards. I have since graduated from BCIT, a tech institute, and I feel confident in saying that I was among the top students there as well. But what now….Well my problem is that I developed a fear of failure. I was scared to really go for anything in the chance that it would be a flop or not go anywhere. It was easier to just lower my own personal standards. It was easy just to let the days go by without really making headway in my career.
When it comes to careers, nothing will come easy. It can’t just fall into our laps. I have been floating for awhile now waiting for something to come along. I think that has to stop; I need to focus. According to a few, I am very skilled in the media industry. I guess it’s true. I have a lot of potential. But so do many other people in this world, so I am going to have to outwork them. I am going to have to take that extra step.
I still want to be on TV. That is my dream. But I have to be realistic and I also have to develop a career. I just hope that if I can stay close to the industry then I will still get some chances. Even though I hope to get an agent, I might not be able to give it my all, because going on auditions doesn’t pay the bills. You need to catch a break. There are many actors out there who never get a single role. I may be contradicting myself, in that if I truly want to be on TV then i need to give it my all and just go for it. But it just isn’t smart.
So those are some of the things I have been pondering lately. Some people say that this blog is a waste of time for me….but I enjoy writing it. I just wish I had more content for you guys. You visit this site because you care about me, and I care about you readers. I hope you can gain some inspiration from this post. It is really coming from a deep place inside of me.
Rick
I’ve read peoples comments on this site in the past and im somewhat shocked. Someone mentioned how you should not just address how you want to become famous but address important issues going on in the world. You said you idolize oprah but on this site you talk alot about yourself which is great because you are documenting how you are reaching your goals but at the same time a national tragedy happened just a couple of days ago at virgina tech 32 people lost their lives and suprisingly nothing was posted at all. Even just a short sentence to pay respect. I just thought it would have been nice for someone who is trying to reach out to the public in a positive way.